Inside the Mind of a Mad Woman: What they did to My MIND~‏

WHAT DID THEY DO TO MY MIND~?

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH. I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

I KNOW HOW I AM UNDERNEATH THE DARKNESS~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH. I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL

AT TIMES I THINK IT'S A GOOD THING THAT THEY CAN'T SEE ME IN HERE~ IT'S A GOOD PLACE TO HIDE AND HEAL...CREATE~N~BREATH~LAUGH AT THE INSAINTY~IMAGINE/PLAY~N~DREAM~ WHY CAN'T I CRAWL TO THE SURFACE COMPLETELY~?~ I KNOW WHAT STOPS ME ~ BUT I CAN'T MOVE PAST THAT BLOCK OF PAIN~FEAR~SPIN~IT IS MY MIND ~IT IS MY HELL~ I WANT OUT OF THE PAIN~FEAR~PANIC~EMBARRASSMENT~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

IT'S MY HELL~ PRIVATELY ~

OR~SHARED~ALONE I STAY TRAPPED~ IT'S NOT LIKE I AM CONFUZED~ I AM JUST TRAPPED~ I KNOW WHERE I AM AT~ I HAVE A ROAD MAP~ A RAILROAD STATION GUIDE~ A YIELD~STOP~N~ A 4 WAY SIGN~...A DON'T RUN BY THE POOL SIGN......STILL I DO ~STILL I DON'T AND I FALL IN~N~ DROWN. THEN THEY COME BY AND HOLD ME UNDER~OUTTTA~SIGHT~ ....OUTTA SIGHT~N~ IN NO ELSE'S MIND~I AM LEFT THERE TOO TERRIFIED TO SUCK~OUT WHAT LITTLE OXYGEN I COULD GET FROM THE AIR BUBBLES~ I WATCH THEM FLOATING ON THE SURFACE~N~ I ENVY THE BUBBLES DANCING~FLOATING~ONE BREATH AT A TIME WITHOUT THE FEAR WHAT WILL HAPPEN AT THE END OF DANCING~N~FLOATING~SKIMMING THE SURFACE ~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

THE ONES THAT LOCK ME UP~SHUT ME UP ~ SHUT ME DOWN, MASK THEMSELVES WELL BEHIND THE TRUTH THEY WANT OTHERS TO SEE~ IF OTHERS SEEN THE MASK OF LIES THEY'D BE POWERLESS~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

THE FIGHT FOR LIFE HAS BEEN KILLIN` ME SLOWLY~ CUZ THEY WON'T LET ME LIVE~ FREEDOM~FREEDOM~FREEDOM~...IT'S LIKE I AM NOT ALLOWED~ JUST LOCK-UP THE CHILD~ LEAVE ME THERE STARVING~AFRAID~ALONE~AWAITING MORE DARKESS~LIGHT IS JUST MY IMAGINATION~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

BEAT DOWN MY GROWTH AS A YOUNG SOUL..BECUZ YOU HAVE NONE~ I SEE ALL IN THE DARK ~THEY KEEP BEATING DOWN BACK INTO THE DARKNESS ,SO THEY CAN KEEP THE OTHERS BLIND~ THEY THINK IF I REMAIN HERE I'LL LOSE MY SIGHT~ IT'S EAZIER THEN FOR THEM TO GET OTHERS TO SEE THINGS FROM THEIR TWISTED PERCEPTION IF I AM NOW BLIND TO IT TOO, OR NUMB TO THE POINT WERE I AGREE WITH THEM ~AGREE WITH THE DARKNESS~ FALL BACK ~N~ STAY IN THE HELL~ THEN THEY DON'T LOSE~ AND I WON'T HAVE ANY ADDED SUFFERING~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

AND THEN THERE IS A PLACE THAT CONSUMES ME... ITS THE DUMPING GROUND~THE DAMAGED PARTS THAT I HAVE BEEN GOOD TO REMIND MYSELF WHERE THEY ARE~ SO USE TO SORTED HATE FROM OTHERS~ WHY NOT AGREE FOR THE "TRIP~MOMENT" ~ WHY NOT HAVE SOME SELF SORTED HATE FOR THE TIME BEING~GOOD THING IT ONLY LASTS IN "TRIP~MOMENTS"~ TIME BEING~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

DARK REFECTION ~ REFLECTING DARK REFLECTION~ THEIR DARKNESS ~ REFLECTING MINE~ REFLECTING~ THIERS~........

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

AS A MATURE SOUL STILL THIRSTY FOR KNOWLEDGE AND LIFE~ I STRETCH OUT MY BROKEN WINGS ~N~GLIIDE THROUGH THE DARKNESS .....THEY ACT LIKE SNIPERS ... READY TO PULL THE TRIGGER

IF I GLIDE PAST THEIR WATCH TOWERS~

WITH EVERY AIM ...THEY'RE

HOPING........WAITING.....WATCHING....MAKING THERE STAND IN THE SHADOWS ~ JUST BEYOND THE DARK~ OTHERS CAN'T SEE THEM~ OTHERS CAN'T SEE THE SHADE DIFFERENCE~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

BALANCE~BALANCE WITH JUSTICE~LIGHT~...LIFE WITH THE TRUTH~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

BALANCE~N~EQUAL OF WHAT I GIVE OUT~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STIL ~

I TIP THE SCALE TO LIGHT~WHILE I TRY TO BALANCE IN THE DARK~ I GIVE OUT LIGHT~ I GIVE OUT LIGHT~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

I HAVE

A VOICE DOWN HERE IN THE PIT OF DESPAIR~DARKNESS~ I HAVE MANY VOICES~ ONLY ONE OF THE VOICE SPEAK WHEN THEIR AROUND~ THE ONE THAT BATTLES THE MIX~N~BALANCE OF RAGE~N`LOTHE, RAGE~N~TRUTH, RAGE~N BALANCE BACK TO CLEARING A PATH.......WHERE IS THE LOVE~WHERE IS THE LIGHT~ ITS MIXED WITH RAGE~
A STORM IS COMING~..

SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

I AM WITHIN MY DARKNESS~ALONE IMAGINING LIGHT TILL THE IMAGE CONSUMES ME~SURROUNDS~ UNTIL ITS NOT IMAGINED ANYMORE~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

I HOLD ON TO THE LIGHT , AS I FEED~BATHE~SLEEP~CREATE~SLEEP~AWAIT~AWAKE~CONNECT~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

I WANT OUTTA THIS HELL~OUTTA DARK~ INTO THE LIGHT ~ OUT INTO THE WORLD OUTSIDE THIS HELL~ THIS DARKNESS~THIS DARKESS I WAS BORN INTO~ THIS DARKNESS THAT I HAVE NOT MADE~ ...THIS DARKNESS I HAVE MADE .... SOON TO MAKE~ THE FEAR OF THAT, CONSUMES ME~

A STORM IS COMING~....SETTLIN` IN IS A LAUGH..I HAVE NEVER BEEN STILL~

I AM NOT THEIR DARK~ I AM NOT MY DARKNESS~ IT JUST SURROUNDS ME~ IT'S JUST APART OF ME~ I AM WHO I CHOSE TO BE~ I FIGHT TO REMAIN WHO I AM AWAY FROM THE DARKNESS~ I HAVE HIDDEN THERE OUTTA FEAR OF JUDGEMENT~ DOUBT~ PARALYZED BY THEIR HATE~THEIR EVIL~THEIR GAMES~ THEIR WAR ~ THEY WANT TO FIGHT~ IT'S NOT MY WAR I MADE~ MY WAR IS TO WIN THIS BATTLE, I WAS BORN INTO AND NOT BY CHOICE~ I WILL WIN~ I AM IN MY DARKNESS SMILING~ LURKING~ STARVING~WATCHING~ WAITING~