Wednesday, September 22, 2010

I don't wanna stay or feel Isolated‏

I don't wanna stay or feel Isolated....Family, friends,community, chewed me up and spat me out to spin alone in a Hellish world that did and don't give a fuck....And wants me To stay outta site ~n~ outta mind~ Don't dare speak~ Don't Dare Dream~ Don't Dare Create or else your gonna be another target somewhere else and others will shoot ya down , shut your dreams down ... Till you Shut Yourself down ~!
I have been sitting here at my Asylum ( that's what I call my apartment) as the Roaches climb all over my equipment ~n~ art supplies that are in bags, ~n~ climb all over me And while the Spiders lurk in corners ~n~ stream down a thread of web to say hello (fuckin scary for me)... I read alot about how people have been mistreated. I have been treat that way too. Yeah, I talk alot about Karen and Now T.P.R. But is a Community I can escape to, ~n~ be myself without Judgement. ~n~ I met like~minded Souls who have showin me Love ~n~ Support. That I haven't experienced in sometime since my friends who truly loved me past away. I have been viewing my War~torn Enemies like Roaches ~n~ my new Friends like Spiders. My Enemies always love to crawl all over me.... drivin me insane, ~n~ when the lights get turned on they hide in cracks, and acted as if nothing happened and it's all just in my head~ Then the lights turn off ~n~ they come back full force, crawlin' ~n~ crappin on all my Passions ~n~ Crawlin on my Skin...tryin to drive me crazy once more.
My New Friends are the Spiders.... I like them. love them ~n~ Fear them. Becuz I have been conditioned to Fear the Knowable, Beautiful, Supportive, Lovin Souls That Spin~Out Positive Messages. I can't help but FEAR that I might be laughed at, fucked with, cuz I always got that...BUT it has not happened here. I THANK whatever made me wanna clik on the Stever photo. I love the Idea of Community that is Open~To All~ Supportive, Caring, Inspiring, I love the Vision of T.P.R ,, I LOVE THE PlayGround Project. These are things I always viewed the same way ~n~ always held in my Heart~ ~n~ Search for~! I am alone in my War when I am at my Asylum, BUT I am NOT alone when I am hang on the PlayGround. I gotta lot of Healin ~n~ Growth to do. Glad that's there a Community of Souls who Embrace ME for ME ~n~ I can be Creative ~n~ Feel Alive~! LOVE TO YOU ALL ~!


  1. That's beautiful, Soda! I know what you mean. I thank God every day for leading that woman in a tophat to my myspace door. Meeting people like you, was a bonus! ;) It's nice to finally have a playground, where freaks and weirdos like us are safe, welcome... and even wanted! I love ya, Soule Sis!! Your talent, and creativity is AWESOME! Don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise... Deb :)


  3. Right on the money Soda. It ROCKS!! (DREW)